No sense

what the heck just happened here.

What?

I need to check and see if there is a mobile option to update this. Like a more advanced twitter I presume.

Calms the Nerves

Turns out I am a very high strung person. (Here comes another 'I am going to...' statement) I am going to make a conscious effort to calm down and not let myself become an angry, weak person.

I speed recklessly (not as fast as that word would have you think, but faster than I should) and scream at traffic going too slow. I do all this when there are no time constraints.

I point out others mistakes readily. I also make matter-of-fact statements when a persons viewpoint is different from my own. I look in the 'personality mirror' reveals an ugly being. The worst of it is that I was going through life with a huge negative karmic burden. No more.

I am still gathering up the courage to do what needs to be done. I need to apologize to everyone I have crossed. Most people are over whatever I did to them but there are a select few that need special attention. In effect I will be pulling a 'My Name is Earl' and will compile a list of all the bad things I have done. This will alleviate the Karmic burden (a little I hope).

Good luck to me. I'll need it. I'd rather not rekindle any bad feelings or memories, but I must.

Next thing to work on is my god complex. I really don't matter that much to people.

Not Entitled to Anything

So my parents are not going to pay my rent this summer as had been originally planned. This puts a damper on my plans to get LASIK.

I will be making a few grand this summer and it was suggested to me that I should save my money. Now this is a valid suggestion. I will continue to live frugally until I have another job while I'm in school (a waiter, hopefully. Is that a weird aspiration)

I spoke with someone I work with and he has just had LASIK and loves it. I think for sure I will get it and just get 0% financing. This gives me 18 months to manage my cashflow. This is going to be great.

More Goals

I have come to the realization that my creativity is underutilized. I will (make another empty promise to myself. Negative inner voice coming through in my writing, great. Oh, and now it's being sarcastic. Phenomenal) rehash my old stories. I have noticed a few spelling errors and weak story points. I will rehash those and perhaps develop those stories into something splendid.

In more important news, I'm too good at Guitar Hero. Now, every time I pick up my real guitar, I feel like an idiot. I was attempting to play Thunderhorse and it just wasn't the same. It's stuck in my head and I can't rock it out.

I am receiving a lot of feedback about getting lasik. My parents are against it. In fact I am the only person that is for it. It seems like such a good idea to me. My consultation is on Wednesday, so we'll see what the doctor has to say.

Great Days of Nothing

I have realized two things. I might have to deal with another non-critical but significantly annoying health problem, and sometimes a day of rest is nice.

Allergic Conjunctivitis is making my eyes unbearably red and itchy. It is caused by pollen in the air so I cannot enjoy spring air unless I want to look like a strung out hooker. I don't. It accompanies my severe RLS and may prevent me from getting LASIK. Not the end of the world and it is better than being blind. It is still annoying, though.

I tried getting some work done today, but decided to blow it off. It is a 3 day weekend and I'll do what I want. And what I want now is too sleep.

28 more times

I heard more than once that it takes around 30 repetitions to make something a habit, be it daily, weekly, monthly, (yearly?). This is my second post in a row so we'll see if I can make it. Cynics will say that I'll make it. Optimists will probably agree. Everyone that knows me knows how fickle I am but that is something I'm working on.

Being a jack of all trades like I am, I will be documenting this. I have put together a wiki (a new trend, the personal wiki) to try to keep myself on track. Perhaps I am taking on too much at once. However, I have too much free time on my hands (no one should admit to that, but I am getting 8 hours of sleep and still watch a substantial amount of TV and work a 9 hour day.)

Now here comes the fun journal stuff:

I had to move 21" CRT monitors at work today. Whoever developed technology far enough to require a giant, heavy monitor before they developed cheap flat-panel technology should be scolded appropriately. Other than that this internship is fantastic.

I also had a conversation with the IT Auditor and discovered how cool that job really is. Perhaps I should pursue that. I also discovered that I was performing those tasks already where i worked before. Perhaps a departmental change is in order. As long as I don't get stuck in purchasing.

I might just be placing to much info in one post so I will cut it off here. There is plenty of time. At least 28 more.